Suddenly jus have the urge to blog and my mind is kind of in a mess now...but don noe why sia.
i seriously don noe if i am really up to the standard to lead the unit again as a Cadet Inspector. I feel that there is still something in there that is stopping me from going any further. But i have yet to be able to recognise wad it is. So wad is the prob with me?
Seeing everyone progress and i seem like i am very far from them as i guess i am not progressing. But wad is seriously happening in me and around me?For the past nine days in RC, i feel that i am physically there and not mentally there as i feel that nth really gets into my brain. I guessed i have jus wasted nine days of my entire life doing nth and jus practically going through motion and i might be going to waste another 4 days of my life.
But we shall see to it as i have yet to attend the camp yet and hope that i will really enjoy myself and learn more from the camp and not jus going through motion.
