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Seems like 1 week have passed so so fast... my last post was done last week during bioinformatics and now here i am sitting in the library waiting for bioinformatics lesson...

Haiz... Feeling kind of sian actually... Haiz... Have been feeling this way since last night... Till this morning...

I thought after a night's slp i will feel better, but does not seem to work this time...

Not a very nice night last night... everything said jus seem to be wrong and all... Really felt very lost... don noe wad to say... don noe wad to do... I mean after hearing darling's moody voice makes me moody too... But i don noe whether is it something i said or done that have caused darling to be so moody also... Darling said was due to the rain... But it jus makes me wonder whether is it really the rain...

This morning woke up don noe why still feel so sian... I jus don felt like talking... Jus no mood to do so...

Jus felt like sitting at one corner alone blast the music ... it will be better if it were to rain,the heavier the rain the better it is... Jus felt like getting soaked...

I really don noe wad i want, wad i am thinking...
I don noe wad darling want and wad he is thinking...

Thinking that not knowing wad darling want and wad he is thinking is bad enough... The worse thing is i don even noe wad i am thinking and wad i want after living for 18 yrs jus seem damn jialat...

I think there is something that I need to change man... my pathetic face... I jus gives ppl the black face whenever i don feel like doing anything or don feel like talking... I think they might jus get pissed off by it... haiz... see already also sian rite... shall see wad i can do to my face bah...

Haiz... Mayb shall get a starbucks coffee on my way back home if I don feel lazy to do so bah... Shall not think too much bah...

Buaiz

Sian... The bloody bioinformatics lesson is seriously driving me crazy... I don understand a single shit the teacher said... she is like practically speaking alien to me man...

nvm... looking forward to see my darling later... will be cooking for my darling... as requested lah... but still ok lah... as long as darling happy i will be glad to do so... hehehe...

shall see if i rmb to get photos of the food i cook later(provided it is presentable lah of course...)hehehe... shall blog again later if i am free bah...

Ciaoz

its my second day in taipei lor... Went to many places today and ate many things today too... Its my first time eating chou dou fu... Its superb man... Not smelly at all...

Went to ximending and wu fen pu night market ytd...

This morning left the hotel and went to their national museum den to yang ming shan... After that went to dan shui and took a ferry to dan shui ma tou... After that went to shilin night market...

Now i am sitting on the bed having ah zhong mian xian...

Thinking of my darling so so much the whole day man... Anyway it is our official 2 month le wor... Happy, happy, happy... Love you darling...

My darling will be back in singapore in another 9 hours or so... Do rest well when you get back k darling... Love you!!!

Bad news... Timetable is out and is like shit man...

Lesson as early as 8 and ends like at 6... Mon to Fri except Wed...This is going to kill me man... NVM!!! Shall try to look on the bright side...

Anyway shall try to enjoy myself before starting a new battle in the new semester...

Jia you lor everybody!!!

Darling will be back in Singapore in a jiffy, but I will be away in Taipei...


Haiz... No choice... Will only get to see Darling after I get back from there bah...

But anyways... hope that the weather in Taipei will become better when I am there bah... seems like it is still raining for this passed few days and the following few days to come... Hope the rain will end soon...

Another few more hours to go till I am out of the house and on my way to airport... Will be taking Cathay Pacific...

Will first have a transit at Hong Kong den to Taipei... Taking the 8 am flight and reach there at bout almost 3 in the afternoon...

For the flight coming back will also have a transit at Hong Kong den to Singapore... Taking the 1015 flight and reach Singapore at 1800...

Till den i guess i might not have the chance to blog... will blog if possible ya...

2days and 7hrs and 10mins...
= 55hrs and 10mins...
= 3310mins...
= 198600secs...

Till then peeps...

Buaiz...

Its been 13 days...

During this 13 days I talk to many ppl and went to different place and think of many things... Don noe wad i was thinking actually but maybe jus trying to sort things out I guess... Mind is in a mess sometimes but don noe why...

I guess this is when I need a double shot frappucino espresso... Cos I think no matter how bad the situation I am in, it will not be as bitter as the espresso itself... So whenever I am feeling down I jus need a double shot frappucino espresso...

Haiz... Jus misses the days being together with Darling... Just feels like hugging him so tightly and not let go... Dreamt of him a few times and I can only wake up and smile to myself... Jus hope to see him real soon ya...

3days and 22hrs and 5mins...
= 94hrs and 5mins...
= 5645mins...
= 338700secs...

Yay... left with 3 days for darling to get back home...hehehe... glad that my darling can get to enjoy himself after so many days of hard work... Till then that I get to see my darling... Love you!!!

Wow... cannot believe that this is my 100th post liao...

Omg... I am feeling so damn slpy rite now don noe why... mayb slpt too late and woke up too early liao... maybe i shall jus catch an early slp later...

Another like 5days and 1hr and 15mins to go till Darling gets back...
This equates to 121hrs and 15mins...
Which is equals to 7275mins...
Equals to 436500secs...

After counting down for so many days... I am happy that the days are getting lesser and lesser liao...hehehe...

Alright... Shall end here... My eyes cannot open liao... I shall go catch my slp b4 I start slping at the computer table...

Au revoir!!!

Haha... ok... wad a title... but ya this thing jus suddenly struck me...

Was watching tv jus now(as usual tv makes me start thinking...hehehe), the actress says, every women loves surprises and are always expecting surprises...

Ok, I find that quite true because I happen to be one of them... Maybe I am jus another ordinary female I suppose... But ya... Love the feeling of being surprised... No matter how big the surprise might be but will jus be happy about it...

Actually female are easy to please from my point of view... Most women are similar... Give them the love they need and fill them with surprises and that is enough... We will feel contented...

Some truth about female is that normally wadever they say they like to jiang fan hua... When they say they don want actually in their mind they might jus be yelling "HELL YES!!!"...
But when they are pissed nv ask them if they are really pissed... It will jus simply make them even more pissed... I mean can't you see it for urself rite...

Wad to do, we are called female for a reason... most of the time we are jus too ridiculous at times...

After reading this, I mean most ppl might jus think that wadever I say might jus be bullshit but this is from a female point of view... How come I suddenly have this post is also because recently talk to many ppl and this is wad i have concluded from the conversation itself...

ok shall end here for this topic itself ya...
Shall catch my slp soon... Buaiz...

As of now... Still got...

6days and 0hr and 25mins...
= 144hrs and 25mins...
= 8665mins...
= 519900secs...

Missing him... Miss until cannot tahan sia... OMG!!!

hey... It may be a surprise to many ppl that ur missy here is in the kitchen currently cooking gingko nut barley beancurd skin dessert... Hehehe... Will upload the photos later ya...

Hands will be busy making the base for fruit tarts... Later then... Buaiz...

Was watching tv jus now and 1 of the sentence struck me...
Ren sheng de xuan ze you na me lan mah???
I think my answer to it will be...
Ren sheng de xuan ze di que jiu shi you na me lan...

Often or not we are making choices between alot of things in life... When you want to think of not making that choice... The decision will still come back sooner or later until the matter is solved... The choices in life are often limited and when u are forced to make choices u will soon have to do it no matter wad...

For me, I am a person who choose to procrastinate until there is no choice... But do i have a choice of not choosing between certain stuff??? I seriously don noe... but shall let fate do its job... I believe everything is fated... Whether or not is it BGR or friendship... Its all planned...

Sometimes i think this matter is very contradicting... People says that everything is fated and planned for and yet there is another saying that says ren ding sheng tian... Sometimes,i think the more i think, more qns will pop into my head...

I really qns myself whether thinking so much is it a good or bad thing... Thinking about the future jus scares me off the reality... But reality is something that cannot be avoided... Thinking about BGR, family, studies, friendship and many many more things sometimes all i can do is jus sit down and be saddened by all the facts and stuff... Really hope i have the ability to settle all the problem and not disappoint anyone... The most impt thing is that i would not want to disappoint myself over and over again... (Come on man!!! Where have my optimistic character gone to??? Have it been scared off by reality and all the problems???) Jus hope that i can face the reality and problems optimistically...

How I wish if I can go back in time when I am still a baby... How I wish I would nv grow up... How I wish I can jus stay at that time when I am free from problems and troubles...

After ranting so much all are jus "How I wish..." , seriously need to get my mind off from all the problem in the reality but that is jus purely impossible... School is going to start soon and there comes another stress... Nagging parents and u shld noe wad they are nagging about... not only nag about me, they nag me abt my bro and sis and even my darling... haiz... My GPA drop... His GPA not good... why bro fail this and that... why is my sis not improving, why is she still failing this and that... I mean, how much of all this am I able to control... I seriously don noe... besides the part that concerns me, I think the others are beyond my control...Not even thinking if i can control my own part properly...

Sometimes I seriously think about my future prospect but it jus darkens the path infront of me... I seriously don noe wad to do...
Shall jus stop thinking off all these things for the time being after pouring it out all here...

Haiz... Think of my darling think until want to die liao lah...
Think too much liao... Think until dream of him jus now during afternoon nap... This is also the first afternoon nap after so many many days... That would be partly because normally I would have slpt till almost 2pm due to slping at earliest of 4am in the morning... But I slpt at 1am plus last night and was woken up by sms in the morning at 9 plus... One crazy fellow text me in the morning " Jie Jie Good Morning". I was thinking who the bloody moroon was... ended up it was one of my mum's ex-colleague i suppose... den ended up he was saying "I am Jason.28 years old" den my reply was like "ok...". His next msg came and was like "Can we be friend? What about you?"... I was like... siao one... early in the morning disturb people's beauty slp and still want o make fren... crazy fellow... den i cannot be bothered to reply any more...

Siao one... if i meet more of this kind of ppl i will seriously scream my head off at them for disturbing my slp man...

Anyways... Counting down to the days darling is coming back liao... Hehehe...
Thinking of it makes me happy... hehehehe...

6days and 23hrs and 30mins...
= 167hrs and 30mins...
= 10050mins...
= 603000secs...

Yay... counter getting lesser and lesser liao... heheheh...
Jia you Jia you... Somemore, somemore...Soon... Soon... hehehehe...

Shall end of here for the time being ya... hehehe... Buaiz peeps...

Its been a long long 9 days liao...

Still counting down...
very very happy to hear darling's voice jus now... it jus brightens me up :D

Love you so so much darling... Wait till I come back den i update you k?hehehe... Hope will be able to talk to u via msn when i am in taiwan k...

8days and 2hrs
= 194hrs...
= 11640mins...
= 698400secs...

Love you...

Counting down liao ... hehehe... 8 days to Darling coming back to Singapore...

8days and 22hrs and 15mins...
= 214hrs and 15mins...
= 12855mins...
= 771300secs...

Omg... This few days i think i am jus trying to kill myself... Slping at the earliest time of 4am and waking up earliest at 12pm provided with ppl calling to wake me up... It has been the pass 8 days... Omg... i don noe how long more is this going to last... does not feel slpy at all at night... haiz... nvm... shall jus see how long this is going to last bah...

Ytd was Mid-Autumn Festival...

Nv really do anything... Only went to Ahma's place for dinner... Had steamboat for dinner last night... It was great cos most of us gathered at ahma's place...

After that came home and planned on where to go when i am in Taiwan...

Now have nth much to do... Woke up at 1 plus den had lunch with my beloved best friend Ms Fiona Lee...

Miss my Darling so so much... Its 7 days liao... its another 10 days or so for darling to get back to Singapore...

10days and 6hrs and 30mins...
= 246hrs and 30mins...
= 14760mins...
= 885600secs...



Although this counter is getting lesser and lesser but in the end still need to add another 4 days to it... Nvm... Shall test my patience bah...

Its officially Mid-Autumn Festival...

Its a time for gathering, sit down and have mooncake, play with lantern and candles... But for me something seems to be missing as darling is not around with me... But nevertheless... When i look at the moon i will feel glad as i noe that darling will be looking at the same one as well...

Jus now went for dinner at bei sheng lou with the usual gang... Today was a big group of us... Today including me there are 11 of us... They are namely yoke hong, guo quan, sim ying, daryl, yang rong, yang qing, wei yang, beng fong, dan dan, xue jun, meng hui and last but not least... ME!!! Its a long time since we had such a big group gathering... but i guess we will not have one until after their A levels... But in any case i will like to wish them all the best...

Had dinner already den was deciding where to go... After long discussion decided to buy some candles and den walk to yishun park which is located near safra... After walking almost the whole park we finally found a spot where ppl have their taiji session...

We played with sparkles and candles...

The happiest thing of all is that darling called back... hehehe... Super duper happy to hear his voice... miss him so so much...

So... too much off missing him and this is wad i did... hehehe...





After that went for a drink den walked from safra to Syed for roti prata den came back home...

11days and 21hrs and 30mins...
= 285hrs and 30mins...
= 17130mins...
= 1027800secs

But seeing that I will be going to Taiwan...

it adds another 4 days to the counter... Haiz... How I wish i can get to see my darling sooner...

Its been 4 days...

Haiz... Suddenly I have an unpleasant feeling... Don noe why am I feeling this way... Scared that something bad might happen... Cross my finger and pray hard that nth happens... Pls...

This morning I heaved a sigh of relieve... A msg came and inform me that my lappy's problem could be solve and fixed without having to pay a single cent as because if it is a software prob den i will have to pay the money... Luckily it is hard disk prob... So they got it replace but will have to wait till it gets back from sony centre to the shop for collection...

Went for class gathering at Kenny's place today...

Then went off with Ping Ying and met Yoke Hong to go to bugis... Carried 3 pomelo back to Yishun cos ahma they all wanted to eat...

Today met many ppl...
Today talk to many ppl...
Today think of many things...

Haiz... Problem surfaced since then till now still not solved... Hope can be solved soon bah...Haiz...It was all meant to be happy but why did it all turn out this way???

Shi shang zhen de mei you liang quan qi mei de shi mah??? Zhen de bu xi wang fang qi ren he yi fang... You ze ge bi yau mah??? Wei he bu neng he ping gong cu??? Wo zhen de bu liao jie... Hen xi wang yi qie dou shi yi chang e meng... Jiu rang wo chong e meng xing lai bah...

Song of the Day...

分分钟需要你 林子祥

愿我会揸火箭 带你到天空去
在太空中两人住
活到一千岁 都一般心醉
有你在身边多乐趣
共你双双对 好得尺好得意
地暗天昏当闲事
就算翻风雨 只需睇到你
似见阳光千万里
有了你开心D 乜部都称心满意
咸鱼白菜也好好味
我与你永共聚 分分钟需要你
你似是阳光空气
扮靓D皆因你 癫癫地皆因你
为你甘心做傻事
扮下猩猩叫 睇到乜都笑
有你在身边多乐趣
若有朝失左你 花开都不美
愿到荒岛去长住
做个假的你 天天都相对
对木头公仔做戏

Days seem so slow without Darling around...

13days and 0hr and 30mins...
= 312hrs and 30mins...
= 18750mins...
= 1125000secs

This is the number of days, hours and mins that I am still waiting for my Darling to get back from Cambodia... Hope he is doing fine there...