I just fail in everything I do...
I guess I just fail in doing everything... I fail even in this relationship... I totally failed... Never once I did the right thing...
I really really don noe wad to do... Jus feel like crying so hard... tried alot of method today to make myself forget wadever had happen last night... Tried to make myself happy... Wanted to just treat it as nth happened... But after all the effort, it seemed like nth works... I noe crying solves nth... But I really don noe wad to do... I just feels so sour the entire day...
I understand wad Darling was trying to say, but is it really wrong to fantasize??? Sometimes I think it is just a method to bring us off the stressful world... To give us some hope in life... To just give me abit more optimistic thinking... To keep me going... Mayb Darling just thinks that I fantasize too much...
Sometimes I just feel that I have no one to go to... Even Darling... I just wanted a shoulder to cry sometimes but it is nv there... Before I am in the relationship it is not there, even after I am in a relationship I am still not there... Am I really thinking too much abt a relationship?
I fell in love with Darling because I feel that Darling is a person I can go to, who will support me when I am down, console me when I am sad, tell me wad is the right way to go when I am lost in wadever I do, be there for me whenever I needed somebody to hug onto to cry hard... But Darling is always missing something in there... I noe nobody is perfect but I cannot say that Darling have not tried hard enough, Is not that is not good to be practical, but practicality does not work everytime. If love is really so practical it will never be known as love. I really don noe wad to do...
Who can I hold on to??? Can somebody just tell me??? Who can I go to??? I cannot go to Darling... Jus who can I go to??? Darling... Can U jus hold on to my hands and bring me back to where I am suppose to be??? Can I go to u for every single in my life??? Can I??? Can I noe the answer??? I have been trying to hold back alot of tears... I don noe how long more I can hold back... I really don noe...
Bye everybody...
