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Already out for 2 days liao... Ytd went out with 2 humble-less girl... Hahaha... Namely Ziwei and Winnie... Was a sinful day ar... hahaha... Had Pasta mania, koi, Wo Ai Tai Mei and marble slab creamary...

Today went out with uncles and aunties... Had marble slab cremary again...

This 2 days had ice cream but it is not as nice... Is it because I use to eat it with you thats why wadever we ate was nice or is it just nice that the one that I ate is not nice?

We went through quite a lot of things during our 1 yr plus together and going through alot of things just reminds me of you and everything that we do together... Did not really notice that we had went to so many places before... Where ever I go and wad ever I do reminds me of you.

Its had to forget wadever we have done and been through... Just hard. But I am living everyday to the fullest and do wadever I can... I believe things will past.

No matter what, I did not regret any part from the start being with you to letting you go... I know that this might be the best for both of us. If we are meant to be together fate will bring us together again... No matter how many rounds we will go it will still bring us together but if it is not meant to be no matter how it is we will nv be together. I shall not force anything.

I just want to let you know that I have never regret agreeing to be your girlfriend to being together with you. I cannot bear to let it go of the relationship but I will not regret anything both of us have decided. I believe it is really the best for both of us. Although we are now individual but I will never forget that you were once my most beloved boyfriend a person I loved the most who is part of my life!!!

Say Hi to my new best friend... He is Francis Poo...

P.S. Its always hard to let go but it will be harder to drag on... Just let natures take its course and you might have surprises from it. You never know...

Signing off,
Carin

Hmm... Still deciding whether to wake up earlier to get to barrage or somewhere to take nice photos??? Shall I??? But like its a saturday and still have to wake up early to get out of bed seems like not letting myself rest more... But have a strong urge to take photos... But don noe where to go and take the photo...

Shall I get to barrage, clarke quay, sembawang park or botanic garden???

Don noe where to go and have to meet the girls at 1230 at bugis... Or is there anywhere to take photos at bugis leh??? Hmmmmmmm~~~~~

Never mind... for now shall go shopping online on Gmarket now... Saw wallet and bags... Wahahahhaha... Shall get a new wallet for myself... WWWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

P.S. Maybe photo taking can help to express what I feels???

Signing off,
Carin

Mum and dad is going out of town this few days so its kind of a free time for me... Hahahah...
Now i am on my way home from terminal 3... Hope mum and dad have a safe trip there and back... Shall wait for them to be back next thurs... So for now anyone can date me anytime :)

First havoc time will be on sat bah... Girls day out~~~
after that shall see how... Slp in day i guess... Hahaha...

So far here its all the plan i have... Hahaha...

Bye peeps...
Carin

Hi everyone!!!

Let me introduce myself~~~

I am Carin Low Zhi Jun currently single but not available as yet... Lol...
A brand new person standing infront of everyone :D

P. S. I am going to stay strong and enjoy wadever is coming next cos life is short :D

Signing off,
Carin :P

Got it all straighten out. You are going to move on. Seems like our situation can never be changed. I have also see where it is coming from already. We shall just be very good friends from now on. Tmr actually marks our 20 month together but its just too bad that we can never reach it. I shall let nature take its course for me to let go and move on.

It took me 3 years to let go of a crush and it was never easy. Now I have to let go of you who is already part of my life. Its going to be sad but I am going to be happy that you were once part of my life and made it happy before. I am now going to walk the rest of the time alone and I will like for both of us to be happy from now on and so that we still be very good friends and go out and hang out together.

I love you dear and this is the last time I am going to say this.

I LOVE YOU FRANCIS POO HE LONG. GOODBYE AND THANKS FOR BEING MY BOYFRIEND FOR 19MONTHS. I ENJOYED OUR TIME TOGETHER BUT TOO BAD THAT WE CANNOT WALK THE REST OF THE ROAD TOGETHER BUT I BELIEVE YOU WILL ENJOY YOUR TIME TILL YOU FIND ANOTHER BETTER GIRL TO LOVE YOU!!!

So now I am officially single again. Back to the empty heart that I use to have. I will carry on with my life and enjoy my time as well.

P.S. Letting go is not an easy task to do. Going to just take my time.

Signing off,
Carin

Is there anything that i could do to stop thinking about you??? Its not that I don want to think about you but its just that I am not even sure that you will be coming back and I don want to keep holding on and finally one day you tell me you have moved on. That will be very hard on me. I have so much questions to ask you about and so many thoughts in mind but I dare not ask you any of it cos I am no longer the one that you are looking for or hugging to sleep at night.

I just want to know if it is really totally no feeling for me already or there are still parts of it missing me???

I just want to know if you are doing fine without me bugging you???

Most importantly I just want to know if you miss me at all cos I am missing you like crazy???

There are many many more questions... But it is all going unanswered... I don even know if you will be reading this but at least this is the only place where I can write all this now....

Is this really how life should be from now on???

P.S. The spaces between my fingers are only meant for you to fit in and warm it up... But its getting all cold and empty now...

Signing off,
Carin

Its the second day from it... Not really getting use to it... Been checking my phone quite often although I know that there is not going to be anything... Feeling rather odd...

Going to the places that we have been to upteem times and now that I know that this time round its all without you just feels rather sad. Walking the streets that we always walked, going to the movies like we use to but this time round is all without you. Trying to let go cause I am not sure if you are looking for it... But its never easy, when you are already part of my life.
But I hope you will either find it back or just let me know that you have moved on.

Everything has just lost its direction to travel to. Shall hope that the compass will be back soon to guide my way back to the right track that it should take bah. Although have been crying quite abit but I am going to just try my best to stay strong. I just need time to get back to who I use to be... Although it will be back to that empty heart but at least I am still going to be the same old strong girl.
Goodnight to all and especially to you!!! Jia you!!!

P.S. Waiting for the compass to be back to give me the direction to where I am suppose to go.

Signing off,
Carin

I don know if letting you go is the right choice to make for you to go and find back the feeling between us. Cos I am not sure if you might just let go and move on from here or will you keep trying to find back the feeling between us.

I just really wish that its a cooling off period for both of us and you will keep trying to find back the feeling between us where it started off on the 13 August 2009???

As of today, 09 April 2011, it might be really marking the end to it or it might be just a tentative end I am not sure. Its only for you to tell me.

It was almost 20mths together but we cannot have the chance to reach it together. I have actually made plans to it but I doubt we can spend it together. For the past 1 year odd, it have been a nice time together sharing many ups and downs but I doubt we can do it anymore.

Trying to let you go is the toughest decision I have made so far. I don know if I have made the wrong decision due to impulse because I just want you to be happy and put back the smile back on your face. Cos I know that you have been unhappy for quite some time and that is not what I want to see from you. I just want to see the old happy boy again even if we cannot get back together.

So for now I hope which is tentative that we are going on individual path to move towards the same ending... No matter how long it takes maybe we will have a merging point again.

Anyways, shall just end here for now. Goodnights.

P.S. I just hope we are not going to be like parallel lines.

Signing off,
Carin